Food for thought about the Japanese Earthquake



How I Handle Conspiracy theories and Mainstream news

I recently read an article which talked about the fear mongering taking place in relation to conspiracy theories.

I think in general human life is very fear orientated.

Fear is not necessarily a bad thing. Fear can enslave you.. and free you too.. It just depends on how the individual or group or nation etc choose to use it. Just like any other emotion.. balance being the key.

The information is just may ring true to you or may not.. Your thoughts on the theory or news does not make it right or wrong..

I agree  that there is sometimes accessive fear mongering around certain conspiracy “theories” and the people who take on board these theories/ information and spread it from a fear based, “drama queen” stance.

I also believe that most of humanity is living in a climate of fear because of  “valid” reasons. Striking an emotionally poised response under such a climate  is not always an easy task …

Living in a “financially poorer” European country than England for example gives me a bit of an extra insight in certain ways.

Many people here in Spain are living in financial hardship, not knowing how they will pay their next month’s rent/mortgage/bills ..

I visited a friend a few days ago and I was saddened that she had only enough money to buy salad and vegetables for her child who is ill. None for the rest of the family.. Everyone else had a small portion of chips and a thin sliver of ham for their meal.. Many other friends and acquaintances get by on next to nothing..

On a positive note, the majority of these friends and acquaintances who grow much of their own food,  have simple lifestyles and very few belongings are the ones who seem to be doing ok, despite a tiny budget.  🙂

As a parent I can understand how such situations could build into rage and fear at society and the system for the average European, city dweller who is not used to a frugal  lifestyle and does not have land to grow their own food.

Anyway this article made me think about sharing my own strategy on facing f ear from all that is going on in our world according to  the conspiracy theorists, alternative media and mainstream media.

A lot of the information can be alarming and  frightening if one is not “armed” with a generally balanced emotional, mental and spiritual stance.

I have over the years developed besides other things an ability to step back/out of whatever life drama/news has  descended.. It is a bit like switching off… whereby my rational mind goes on autopilot giving me time to discern, take stock of the situation… I do this if time is an issue.

If time is not an issue I still step back/out but just ponder at a more agreeable pace while I go about my daily business and take time to draw my take an accurate as possible stock of the situation..

I really like the below words as they too help me deal with this emotion:

“Fearlessness is  the ability to remain soft and open, even under very difficult circumstances.
Most often, fear causes us to shut down to our own and others’ humanity.
We just want to get away, but the quickest way out is to stay.
If you can slow down a bit, you can see that fear rises, abides, and dissolves on its own.
Allowing this process is the mark of the spiritual warrior.
The coward turns attention toward fighting fear; the warrior accommodates it.”

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When I was little my mother taught me a prayer.
Two very important lines in it were regards God’s attributes:
“without hatred..
without fear.”
It was instilled in me in a way that I too should become like that..

When I was a teenager my father brought home some tea cups.
They were just ordinary white cups with a blue coat of arms with the following words on them:-
Be Just and Fear Not.

Drinking tea every morning out of one of these cups,

reading the “mantra” on it, as my hands clasped the warmth the cup emitted,

before stepping out in to the often cold English mornings and marching off to school was

a soul strengthening process.. (I did not like school.)

I am very grateful to my parents endeavours to educate me spiritually etc.. as it helped turn me into a fairly tough spirit with a just about respectable amount of fearlessness.  😉

Yes….tough enough to face the onslaught of a debilitating illness while in my early teens
Tough enough to actually get through uni despite being in constant pain…
Tough enough to face death threats due to my choice in partner..etc

These toughening up experiences also caused me to hold justice and fearlessness high in my adult value system…

Looking at societies and cultures etc you see how much manipulation goes on through lack of justice and the noose of fear.

So I have this need/hunger to know all that is going on around me so I can form my just/truthful conclusions according to my understanding fearlessly.. (However I do bear in mind that each individuals understanding is very limited as we know so little about life the universe etc).

Applying that to the world today, I don’t fear the information that is out there.. conspiracy theories and otherwise..
I choose not to be scared by it. I am more like a shadow observer..

It seems to me that people react to conspiracy theories in a number of ways. (Fear and alarm often lurks in the background :-/  )

Here are a few that I have observed:
1) Those who will not believe
2) Those who will believe without investigating further, deeper
3) Those who will bury their head in the sand
4) Those who will attack the bringer of the information because the information threatens their personal interest/s e.g status, monetary etc
5) Those who will attack the bringer of the information because the actual information is too off their radar or too scary to face
6) Those who will live breath conspiracy theories 24 hours in a state of fear panic and spreading panic
7) Those who will live breath conspiracy theories 24 hours in a state of relative peace..knowing this information may be important to take on board and share (very few do that)
8) Those who live regular lives but dip into the alternative news media/conspiracy theorists etc information whenever their circumstances permit.. bit like me 😉

I sure am glad that at least some folks are putting forward their ideas, their hunches as regular media is more or less owned by the very people who have herded humanity to its present position.. …

For example last week, I saw aeroplanes toeing and frowing across the sky and at one point their chemtrails formed such a dense cloud that it literally blocked out the sun.
I have seen a number of “conspiracy type videos on chemtrails” but one or two stand out and things add up, so I am mighty grateful that there are people who “lay down their jobs, careers, personal safety and security” to get the just version of events, out in the public arena for those who are willing to look and take on board.

I think people like Bill Ryan, David Icke do a great job. I don’t necessarily agree with all their material but it is food for thought.

Anyway friends, do not get “bogged down” with the challenging stuff 24 hours, week after week etc .. save your energy for when you really may need to dig deep… Like those in war torn zones etc…

All the best to you allxx

I wrote the above article yesterday and I was going to publish it last night, I did not as I was feeling a bit under the weather.. I was woken up this morning by a dream in which I heard a desperate scream. It was a child screaming “MUMMY!” I woke up really upset..

I was getting back to feeling ok when I went on the computer and saw the news..

Well…. my prayers and love for all who are waking upto pain and loss xxxxxx

Toxic Tears- The evils of the so called “green revolution” and Globalisation

So many farmers all over the world are committing suicide because of the way those in control exercise their power over them.  (Monsanto being one of them…)

All my life I have heard how science is going to help make the world a better place. Well, I am sure it could but the faceless, cowardly, few in power over most scientists have mainly used science to actually trample over most of humanity.

The evidence is there bleeding all over the place… no one need look too far.. Some of you may disagree at which point I would like to share the following:

Bertrand Russell wrote in his  book entitled The Impact of Science on Society (1952)  that:

“It is to be expected that advances in physiology and psychology will give governments much more control over individual mentality than they now have even in totalitarian countries.

Fichte laid it down that, education should aim at destroying free will, so that, after pupils have left school, they shall be incapable, throughout the rest of their lives, of thinking or acting otherwise than as their schoolmasters would have wished. (Bear in mind “school masters” teach the curriculum that is set by the governments who are heavily influenced by the corporate world). But in his day this was an unattainable ideal: what he regarded as the best system in existence produced Karl Marx. In future such failures are not likely to occur where there is dictatorship.

Diet, injections, and injunctions will combine, from a very early age, to produce the sort of character and the sort of beliefs that the authorities consider desirable, and any serious criticism of the powers that be will become psychologically impossible.

Even if all are miserable, all will believe themselves happy, because the government will tell them that they are so.

The below article is nothing new.. just another jolt to try and move those of us asleep to WAKE UP.
CHANDIGARH: It is a juxtaposition of contraries that has now become ironic. Even though Punjab government has found a negligible number of farmers who merit Rs 2 lakh compensation, given to those who are driven to suicide because of debt, a Dutch researcher has been overwhelmed by the tragedy which has almost become an every house tale in the villages.

Tom Deiters, who had come to India six years ago to carry out research on farmer suicides in Lehragaga area, as an academic exercise, was moved by the destruction that the pesticides were wreaking that he decided to stay-on for a longer time.

His documentary “Toxic Tears” profiles the heart-broken men and women in Punjab’s villages who had lost their sons to the faulty farming practices. An old woman, her face heavily creased with age, in Chottian village, broke down as she narrated how her eldest son had drunk the very pesticide, which had trapped him in a debt, to end his life four years ago.

A year later, her younger son, unable to tolerate a failed crop and more debt, followed suit. Tom, whose thesis was for doing Masters in International Relations, a part of political science, at the University of Amsterdam in Holland, is now using the Punjab model, to highlight how globalization is far removed from reality. “The evils of so called “green revolution” are so stark in Punjab,” said Tom Deiters, while talking to TOI.

“I want to use Punjab’s example to show how the policy makers are not connected to the reality. This is important because other states in India like Bihar want to follow Punjab’s footsteps,” he said. Frustrated by the pattern of the vicious trap that he had seen replicated across the villages, Toxic Tears, highlights how motivated people, especially commission agents, are taking pains to deny the very existence of farmers’ suicides.

“Farmers are borrowing money at outrageous rates from agents, many of whom are doubling up as agents of pesticides and fertilizers. There is a strong bias at work, “said Tom, who is now more focused on solutions. Punjab government too had been in a state of denial regarding the suicides and had maintained that these were only isolated cases.

“Organic farming, free of chemicals, is a way out, though it has own set of problems. But, there are farmers who are waking up to this fact. I am trying to map organic farmers in Punjab and start a self help group. The organic farmers can get together, learn from each others’ experience, market their produce together and watch the community’s interests, ” said Tom Deiters who has travelled extensively to Europe to study organic farming.

Read more: Toxic Tears: A tale of many Punjab villages – The Times of India

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Priya Yadav, TNN, Feb 27, 2011, 06.12am IST

“This is how they will kill us”:- George Green ex CIA

This man is pretty interesting.. Feel free to investigate a little deeper if you are not too put off by this little clip..

By the way when I say interesting..I mean its food for thought…  something to bear in mind as a possibility..

Rosalind Peterson: The Chemtrail Cover-Up

I have seen a number of Chemtrail videos and this  one stands out in many ways so I thought I would share this  thoroughly researched piece of information… By the way although this research specifically concentrates  on California I have seen chemtrails here in Spain and in England. One of the chemtrail formations I saw in Spain was just crazy because at least 5 planes were tooing and froing in circles and crosses in broad day light emmitting chemtrails. Me and a whole lot of neighbours stood their watching this display of audacity…

Love, Children, and the World

Love, Children, and the World

By María José López Álvarez

According to scientists, studies are demonstrating the existence of a marked relationship between how we are treated during birth and the child rearing period and the way we relate to the world as adult individuals.

Michel Odent argues that the mother-child bond is the base from which all other forms of love spring –including the love for Mother Earth–, and speaks of the existence of a critical period during and after birth with long term consequences for the individual’s future capacity to love. Odent’s work has found a relationship between juvenile crime, suicide, and autism, among others, and certain risk factors surrounding the birthing period, such as forceps delivery, the use of anaesthetics, birth induction, and immediate separation of mother and baby.

He maintains that, for millennia, the survival strategies of numerous societies have been based on the domination of nature and other human groups, and that their violent behaviour stems from aggressive beliefs and rituals surrounding birth –in our society, practices such as unnecessary birth interventions and mother-infant separation after delivery. Thus, he believes that, in order to create a peaceful society and to heal the environment, we need a change in the occidental obstetric model as a fundamental prerequisite, i.e. the humanizing of birth and the empowerment of mothers to trust their bodies as powerful and as conceived and designed for bringing life into the world.[1]

Jean Liedloff claims that, due to cultural practices, occidental societies have separated in a very short time-span from the evolutionary continuum in harmony with the environment in which the human species evolved. As a primate, the human baby expects to be carried in arms, to be breastfed, and to sleep beside his/her carer.[2] This is the baby’s continuum or, in Nils Bergman’s words, the infant’s “natural habitat”. When the baby is separated from his natural habitat, he shows a series of responses designed to call for his mother. In these circumstances, the baby is under stress and, in the event that his calls are unsuccessful, he can reach a state known as “dissociation” [3], during which the combination of stress hormones and toxic chemicals produced in the brain may cause the death of brain cells, which can in turn affect the individual’s future behaviour and his vulnerability to mental illness.[4]

James Prescott’s work shows that in different cultures, certain variables of infant affection, such as playing with children, caressing them, holding them or breastfeeding, are inversely related to crime and violence variables, such as frequency of robberies, murders, etc.[5] That is, the more affectionate the adults are towards their children, the less violent that society is.

So, our brain seems to respond to the way we are treated from the moment we come into the world: empathy, compassion, and love are imprinted in it through sensory stimuli such as breastfeeding, touch, skin to skin contact, etc. Joseph Chilton Pearce believes that this is our biological plan as a species (i.e. our brains are designed to be hardwired for love) and that, when it does not happen, it is because culture is interfering with biology.[6]

There is yet another determining factor in the way we relate to our environment: contact with nature. Occidental societies are steering towards a total lack of this type of contact from infancy. As Aric Sigman states: “We’re witnessing the ecological equivalent of an attachment disorder whereby the child’s separation from Mother Nature causes a failure to bond properly with her and to go on to establish and maintain a caring relationship thereafter.”[7]

The relationship is also reciprocal: Richard Louv has adopted the term “Nature-Deficit Disroder” to describe the health problems associated with the alienation we are suffering from nature: diminished use of the senses, attention difficulties, and higher rates of physical and emotional illness.[8] Health problems increase with the time children spend in front of the screen, which, according to recent studies affects learning ability independently of the programme’s content. Occidental society is substituting “videofilia” (love of the screen) for “biophilia” (love of life).[9]

We shouldn’t be surprised if, as human beings brought up in this environment, we find it difficult to build communities which care for others and for the environment: environmental degradation and the severity of war have known no precedent in human history.

Where, then, lies the solution? In my opinion, it is in our very hands and hearts: we can start with informing ourselves, getting support, and advocating for birth with no unnecessary interventions; breastfeeding our children and supporting others who breastfeed; carrying our babies in our arms as much as possible without fear of spoiling them; sleeping with our children, playing with them, talking to them, taking them out to Nature, and reducing their exposure to screen time. As Pam Leo, author of “Connection Parenting” affirms: “How you treat the child, the child will treat the world”.

María José López Álvarez is a former La Leche League Leader, a biologist, and the mother of three beautiful children: Sebastian (7), Clara (5), and Alejandro (2 months).

[1] Odent M, 1999. The Scientification of Love. London: Free Association Books.

[2] Liedloff J. The Continuum Concept.

[3] Bergman N, 2005. The Physiology of Skin to Skin Contact.  II International Breastfeeding Symposium: Kangaroo Mother Care. Bilbao: La Leche League Spain.

[4] Buckley S, 2009. Gentle Birth, Gentle Mothering. A Doctor’s Guide to Natural Childbirth and Gentle Early Parenting Choices. Celestial Arts.

[5] Presscott J.

[6] Pearce JC, 2007. The Death of Religion and the Rebirth of Spirit. A Return to the Intelligence of the Heart. Rochester, Vermont: Park Street Press.

[7] Sigman A, 2009. Videophilia. Resurgence No. 254, May/June, 16-17.

[8] Louv R, 2005. Last Child in the Woods: Saving Our Children from Nature-Deficit Disorder. Workman Publishing.

[9] Sigman A, 2005. Remotely Controlled: How Television is Damaging Our Lives –and What We Can Do About It. Vermilion Press.

Population control. Just another conspiracy?

Below info from

“A top scientist gave a speech to the Texas Academy of Science last month in which he advocated the need to exterminate 90% of the population through the airborne ebola virus. Dr. Eric R. Pianka’s chilling comments, and their enthusiastic reception again underscore the elite’s agenda to enact horrifying measures of population control.

Pianka’s speech was ordered to be kept off the record before it began as cameras were turned away and hundreds of students, scientists and professors sat in attendance.

Saying the public was not ready to hear the information presented, Pianka began by exclaiming, “We’re no better than bacteria!”, as he jumped into a doomsday malthusian rant about overpopulation destroying the earth.

Standing in front of a slide of human skulls, Pianka gleefully advocated airborne ebola as his preferred method of exterminating the necessary 90% of humans, choosing it over AIDS because of its faster kill period. Ebola victims suffer the most tortuous deaths imaginable as the virus kills by liquefying the internal organs. The body literally dissolves as the victim writhes in pain bleeding from every orifice.

Pianka then cited the Peak Oil fraud as another reason to initiate global genocide. “And the fossil fuels are running out,” he said, “so I think we may have to cut back to two billion, which would be about one-third as many people.” ”

National Security Memo 200, dated April 24, 1974, and titled “Implications of world wide population growth for U.S. security & overseas interests,” says:

“Dr. Henry Kissinger proposed in his memorandum to the NSC that “depopulation should be the highest priority of U.S. foreign policy towards the Third World.” He quoted reasons of national security, and because `(t)he U.S. economy will require large and increasing amounts of minerals from abroad, especially from less-developed countries … Wherever a lessening of population can increase the prospects for such stability, population policy becomes relevant to resources, supplies and to the economic interests of U.S.”

Kissinger prepared a depopulation manifesto for President Jimmy Carter called ‘Global 2000’ which detailed using food as a weapon to depopulate the third world.

The Melbourne Age reported on recently uncovered documents detailing Nobel Peace Prize winning microbiologist Sir Macfarlane Burnet’s plan to help the Australian government develop biological weapons for use against Indonesia and other “overpopulated” countries of South-East Asia.

One of the most chilling admissions of deadly intent came from the lips of the late Jacques Cousteau, the sainted environmental icon. In an interview with the UNESCO Courier for November 1991 the famed oceanographer said:

“The damage people cause to the planet is a function of demographics — it is equal to the degree of development. One American burdens the earth much more than twenty Bangaladeshes. The damage is directly linked to consumption. Our society is turning toward more and needless consumption. It is a vicious circle that I compare to cancer….”

“This is a terrible thing to say. In order to stabilize world population, we must eliminate 350,000 people per day. It is a horrible thing to say, but it’s just as bad not to say it.”

In the foreword to his biography If I Were An Animal, Prince Philip wrote, “In the event that I am reincarnated, I would like to return as a deadly virus, in order to contribute something to solve overpopulation.”

Throughout history elites have invented justification for barbaric practices as a cover for their true agenda of absolute power and control over populations. Up until the 19th century, the transatlantic slave trade was justified by saying that the practice was biblical and therefore morally redeemable in nature, despite the fact that no such bible passage exists.

From 1932 until 1972, the Tuskegee Study Group deliberately infected poor black communities in Alabama with syphilis without their consent and withheld treatment as the diseased rampaged through the town killing families.

In 1951 the Israeli government used US government provided technology to irradiate 100,000 Jewish children in a mass atomic experiment with an entire generation of Sephardi youths used as guinea pigs. 6,000 died immediately after the experiments and the rest suffered for the rest of their lives with debilitating illnesses and cancer.

Thee best olive oil in the world! ;-)

Just to recap, the small  olive press we took our olives to is run by a charity and they had warned us that they would take a week, as much of the process is done by hand. Most olive oil of 500 kgs approx is made within an hour or so when taken to the various local  industrial olive mills ..

Well they took a bit longer than a week but the end product is worth it.

Quality is so important… It reminded me of my friend Veron, who said I have so little money but I eat like a queen. During late summer her family help in farms to pick figs, almonds, autumn is spent picking olives etc. They are often “paid” with the produce. So they dry their figs, jar their olives, have their own olive oil all year and in addition to all that they plant fruit and vegetables wherever they stay. I still have a pumpkin they gave me last year! (Its stored in a cool, dark and dry place. )

Back to our olive oil.. When you normally buy olive oil, it is made with “regular” olives not the wild olives. The wild olives are a lot smaller in size so you have to work a lot harder at picking each tiny olive and to many it can feel tedious and time-consuming. However as we wanted thee best and time was not a BIG issue we decided to pick mainly wild olives, as did our neighbours J&R. We put our olives together and shared the olive oil. In terms of taste, the wild olives give the oil a MUCH stronger taste. That would not be to everyone’s liking but I love it. It is an oil more suitable for savoury use.  I have also tried using it as a massage oil. It absorbs into the skin really quickly leaving it feeling soft and wonderful. No grease sitting on top of the skin at all. Amazing. 🙂

Due to lack of knowledge we messed up the timing of picking our olives.  This year was an experiment to be honest. Next year we will buy our own press and make different types of olive oil picking them and pressing them as the various varieties ripen.

As a last note I would like to suggest… that when you buy some olive oil and consume it.. if you like please pay a thought to the olive tree and the hands that laboured to collect the olives. Olive picking is an EXTREMELY hard underpaid job normally done by those at thee bottom of the social scale. And not everyone has the refreshing attitude my friends V and N have to physical work….. Nor does everyone have their youth and strength…

I do what I do by choice because I want to reconnect with nature.. to feel “whole again”.

I wanted to share the below with you in my blog entry yesterday but I kept it to myself because it goes into a different dimension of life experiences which I have not shared with you guys much on this blog… However I have reached a stage whereby I want to start.. so here goes…

Yesterday as I crossed the “raging river” that NO ONE would dare cross especially with a dodgy leg, on a flyweight aluminium ladder with water crashing around me a few metres below……

I felt completely safe

That feeling was coming from the river…. not from me… it was  strongest when I was half way across.

I felt it resonating towards me like you feel warmth from a fire….

It was magical and humbling..

Daily Prayer of Peace at 9 am and 9 pm GMT, 3 am and 3 pm GMT

I would like to invite all those interested to join me in offering a prayer “together”,  (loving thoughts if prayer is not your “thing”) everyday for all those who are in pain and suffering.

The time will be 9am and 9pm GMT, 3am and 3pm GMT

E.g, As I am in Spain that will mean 10 am and 10 pm.
The point is to pray at the same MOMENT irrespective of location as the effect of many praying at the same time has an

incredible manifold healing effect.

Thanking you all in advance x.

The sun has just risen

Saturday and sunday have become one day as I have still to “hit the pillow”. No, I have not been partying..however, a young friend from Germany needed a early morning lift to the airport so she came to stay at our apartment. We spent most of last night chatting about life and the universe.. We also had another friend come round and she is from Austria. They both shared with us what life is like for them in their respective countries. I find it fascinating hearing about the different (yet similar) lives of fellow humanity in the various parts of the world…

We showed them round our lovely Spanish village and then took them to the nearby (5 minute walk from our home) Budhist temple/Stupa, the largest in Europe. It is an enchantingly beautiful white structure. The inside is painted with scenes from Budha’s early life, enlightenment and upto death. They seemed to love it all.

The sun set soon after  we walked out the stupa. We did the symbolic walk around the stupa (clockwise)  3 times and made a wish.

Beautiful music was soothing our being as we stood quietly soaking up the  calming  colour emanating from the vast blue Mediterranean sea in front of us. After a few minutes we watched the sky turn an amazing red colour as we turned around to face the mountains. We all stood there holding hands just wowed by the magic of the moment…

I am going to meet up with some friends later, who I have not seen for about three weeks so I am off to get a quick lunch of melon (large amount) and then off to bed to get some shut eye 🙂

Before I go I just want to let you now, that I only have access to the internet about one or two days a week at the moment and I try my best to share some of my life etc with you..

I hope you are all well. A very good friend has been under the weather and my thoughts and energy have been with her the last week.

As the years are going by I am seeing more and more the incredibly important part a well balanced childhood provides as  so many people are damaged, traumatised by their childhood… Fears and anxieties are rife. And these give birth to so many destructive emotions which eventually often manifest themselves as unpleasant physical symptoms…

Amazing, I have just been presented with a large bowl of melon cubes and they are wonderfully sweeeeeet! So see you, I am off to eat and chillx