The Truth: My anthem thanks to Joey Jay- May you always be “High on Hope” x

The Truth
Ever since I was a youth,
I have always been searching for the truth,
But having been told so many lies,
Life like good music never dies,
So the question is posed,
Only who in Heaven knows,
why is a man respected when he is dead ?
Should’nt that respect be paid to the living INSTEAD.

Alive a man is sufferer of no mean order,
But dead he has an estate to the value of a Million and over,
I must die one day,
You’ll all hear people say,
Yet praying for Salvation,
In corrupted meditation,
Storing up wealth, ignoring their health,
But, a tree is known by its fruits,
There is no life in lies,
It’s all in the truth.


Bombarding thoughts and dreams on mother and child love/connection

You know when someone is seeking your attention and you feel that, “sense of being stared at”, well throughout the last week  I have been having a similar kind of  experience…  I can be sitting doing something anything..and out of the blue my attention is bought to this relationship and it stays for a while and then goes.

Last Thursday, I was cleaning a filing cabinet on which stands a large photo frame, which has a collage of photos of my children..

Well, it just fell and glass crashed everywhere. I felt really upset… something did not feel right, it was like an omen and I  just felt really agitated.

I went to sleep that night comfortably, but in the early hours of the morning I was in that half awake half asleep state when I heard a young boy shout  “Mummy!”

The sadness and despair in that child’s voice woke me up in a shaken state, my heart was pounding and I felt terribly sad. It was Friday the 11th of March.

I normally see to housewife matters before going on the computer but I just got out of bed and walked to the computer (I have no TV for news) and looked… in disbelief at the nightmarish news in Japan…  In such situations I feel the best I can offer is my love, prayers and spiritual connectedness…And so I did. I knew then, that this was an accident of a terrible magnitude for the children of mother Earth.

All this week a very dear friend of mine has been missing someone badly. I have not yet dared ask him but I think it is his mother.. His life story has brought tears to my eyes on many occasions..especially where the mother and child connection is concerned..

Last night I dreamt of my own mother. She looked very young and very happy. She persisted she wanted to hug me but there were many people between us. Even so she somehow magically stretched out to reach me and she hugged me joyfully!

So as these thoughts have been reigning supreme I will celebrate this magic mother and child relationship by sharing some songs from my childhood.

The below songs bring back many memories for me. I want to  dedicate them to all the mothers of the world and their children xx



How I Handle Conspiracy theories and Mainstream news

I recently read an article which talked about the fear mongering taking place in relation to conspiracy theories.

I think in general human life is very fear orientated.

Fear is not necessarily a bad thing. Fear can enslave you.. and free you too.. It just depends on how the individual or group or nation etc choose to use it. Just like any other emotion.. balance being the key.

The information is just information..it may ring true to you or may not.. Your thoughts on the theory or news does not make it right or wrong..

I agree  that there is sometimes accessive fear mongering around certain conspiracy “theories” and the people who take on board these theories/ information and spread it from a fear based, “drama queen” stance.

I also believe that most of humanity is living in a climate of fear because of  “valid” reasons. Striking an emotionally poised response under such a climate  is not always an easy task …

Living in a “financially poorer” European country than England for example gives me a bit of an extra insight in certain ways.

Many people here in Spain are living in financial hardship, not knowing how they will pay their next month’s rent/mortgage/bills ..

I visited a friend a few days ago and I was saddened that she had only enough money to buy salad and vegetables for her child who is ill. None for the rest of the family.. Everyone else had a small portion of chips and a thin sliver of ham for their meal.. Many other friends and acquaintances get by on next to nothing..

On a positive note, the majority of these friends and acquaintances who grow much of their own food,  have simple lifestyles and very few belongings are the ones who seem to be doing ok, despite a tiny budget.  🙂

As a parent I can understand how such situations could build into rage and fear at society and the system for the average European, city dweller who is not used to a frugal  lifestyle and does not have land to grow their own food.

Anyway this article made me think about sharing my own strategy on facing f ear from all that is going on in our world according to  the conspiracy theorists, alternative media and mainstream media.

A lot of the information can be alarming and  frightening if one is not “armed” with a generally balanced emotional, mental and spiritual stance.

I have over the years developed besides other things an ability to step back/out of whatever life drama/news has  descended.. It is a bit like switching off… whereby my rational mind goes on autopilot giving me time to discern, evaluate..to take stock of the situation… I do this if time is an issue.

If time is not an issue I still step back/out but just ponder at a more agreeable pace while I go about my daily business and take time to draw my conclusions..to take an accurate as possible stock of the situation..

I really like the below words as they too help me deal with this emotion:

“Fearlessness is  the ability to remain soft and open, even under very difficult circumstances.
Most often, fear causes us to shut down to our own and others’ humanity.
We just want to get away, but the quickest way out is to stay.
If you can slow down a bit, you can see that fear rises, abides, and dissolves on its own.
Allowing this process is the mark of the spiritual warrior.
The coward turns attention toward fighting fear; the warrior accommodates it.”

Read more: http://www.beliefnet.com/Inspiration/2008/09/Fearless.aspx?p=2#ixzz1FvwiJy67

When I was little my mother taught me a prayer.
Two very important lines in it were regards God’s attributes:
“without hatred..
without fear.”
It was instilled in me in a way that I too should become like that..

When I was a teenager my father brought home some tea cups.
They were just ordinary white cups with a blue coat of arms with the following words on them:-
Be Just and Fear Not.

Drinking tea every morning out of one of these cups,

reading the “mantra” on it, as my hands clasped the warmth the cup emitted,

before stepping out in to the often cold English mornings and marching off to school was

a soul strengthening process.. (I did not like school.)

I am very grateful to my parents endeavours to educate me spiritually etc.. as it helped turn me into a fairly tough spirit with a just about respectable amount of fearlessness.  😉

Yes….tough enough to face the onslaught of a debilitating illness while in my early teens
Tough enough to actually get through uni despite being in constant pain…
Tough enough to face death threats due to my choice in partner..etc

These toughening up experiences also caused me to hold justice and fearlessness high in my adult value system…

Looking at societies and cultures etc you see how much manipulation goes on through lack of justice and the noose of fear.

So I have this need/hunger to know all that is going on around me so I can form my just/truthful conclusions according to my understanding fearlessly.. (However I do bear in mind that each individuals understanding is very limited as we know so little about life the universe etc).

Applying that to the world today, I don’t fear the information that is out there.. conspiracy theories and otherwise..
I choose not to be scared by it. I am more like a shadow observer..

It seems to me that people react to conspiracy theories in a number of ways. (Fear and alarm often lurks in the background :-/  )

Here are a few that I have observed:
1) Those who will not believe
2) Those who will believe without investigating further, deeper
3) Those who will bury their head in the sand
4) Those who will attack the bringer of the information because the information threatens their personal interest/s e.g status, monetary etc
5) Those who will attack the bringer of the information because the actual information is too off their radar or too scary to face
6) Those who will live breath conspiracy theories 24 hours in a state of fear panic and spreading panic
7) Those who will live breath conspiracy theories 24 hours in a state of relative peace..knowing this information may be important to take on board and share (very few do that)
8) Those who live regular lives but dip into the alternative news media/conspiracy theorists etc information whenever their circumstances permit.. bit like me 😉

I sure am glad that at least some folks are putting forward their ideas, their hunches as regular media is more or less owned by the very people who have herded humanity to its present position.. …

For example last week, I saw aeroplanes toeing and frowing across the sky and at one point their chemtrails formed such a dense cloud that it literally blocked out the sun.
I have seen a number of “conspiracy type videos on chemtrails” but one or two stand out and things add up, so I am mighty grateful that there are people who “lay down their jobs, careers, personal safety and security” to get the just version of events, out in the public arena for those who are willing to look and take on board.

I think people like Bill Ryan, David Icke do a great job. I don’t necessarily agree with all their material but it is food for thought.

Anyway friends, do not get “bogged down” with the challenging stuff 24 hours, week after week etc .. save your energy for when you really may need to dig deep… Like those in war torn zones etc…

All the best to you allxx

I wrote the above article yesterday and I was going to publish it last night, I did not as I was feeling a bit under the weather.. I was woken up this morning by a dream in which I heard a desperate scream. It was a child screaming “MUMMY!” I woke up really upset..

I was getting back to feeling ok when I went on the computer and saw the news..

Well…. my prayers and love for all who are waking upto pain and loss xxxxxx


We’ve made our bed…

I love the words spoken on this clip..


Peace and Love

Thanks for sharing this S and thanks a million for all the work you do with the homeless in Southall xxx
Something peaceful… hope you enjoy…

Words of wisdom from a cancer, stroke, kidney transplant survivor

I have a loved one,  who is sooooo AMAZING, that she just makes me feel humbled, amazed, greatful, inspired.. could go on 🙂  Anyway I asked her today to write me her “formula” for being the person she is.. Well an hour later I recieved some beautiful loving words from her in an email.

Below is a quote from that email.
“Here are my thoughts on living the best life you can with what you have right now.

1. Learn to accept the problems you face.
2. Always know that in this World there are people who are much worse of than you.
3. Be happy with the time you have on this Earth as you are just on a journey, until the next journey comes along.
4. Knowledge is power, knowing about what other people go through, makes you understand their situation better.
5. Meditation calms the mind and is important for peace of mind, this helped me a lot. While praying to God, I feel at peace.
6. Learning to not have too much expectations of people.
7. Life is a bunch of challenges, which you have to learn to face and overcome as they come into your life.
8. Forgive those that make you sad, only then can you move on and learn to be at peace with yourself.
9. Life improves tremendously, when you learn to accept your gains as well as your losses. An example is: I thought I would never be able to walk but I am! I never thought that I would have a kidney transplant and live a normal life, but I did. Even though the down side is long-term medications, physical exercise, weak muscle strength and no movement in my left arm for the last 20 years. I am grateful to God for giving me the strength to go on believing that one day I will have my dreams come true, whether in this life or the next. But for now, dont sweat about the unexpected.
10. Take each day as it comes, as a gift!”

p.s I have this article filed under a number of categories including pharmaceutical… because .. well, it is a long story but she reacted negatively to drugs she was given for a basic problem which caused her to go blind, have a stroke, her kidneys failed and she started to have epileptic fits as a direct result.. :-/
A few years later she had a kidney transplant. The anti-rejection drug she was given is called cyclosporin.  One of its side effects is cancer..and that is what she got 4 years ago…

Cyclosporin was isolated from the fungus Tolypocladium inflatum. Cyclosporin was first investigated as an anti-fungal antibiotic but its spectrum was too narrow to be of any clinical use. J. F. Borel discovered its immunosuppressive activity in 1976.This led to further investigations into its properties involving further immunological tests and investigations into its structure and synthesis. Cyclosporin has unwanted side effects, notably nephrotoxicity. Animal testing showed cyclosporin to be sufficiently non-toxic to begin clinical trials. These initially failed due to poor absorption of the drug. Once this had been overcome, results were encouraging enough for cyclosporin to be licensed for use in clinical practice. There is some controversy between Borel and other workers over priority in the discovery of cyclosporin and its pre-clinical development, which is examined in this review. Cyclosporin changed the face of transplantation. It decreased morbidity and enabled the routine transplantation of organs that until then had only been done experimentally.

Dr T.Simoncini states cancer is a fungus.
His book “Cancer is a fungus” describes how a fungus infection always forms the basis of every neoplastic formation, and this formation tries to spread within the whole organism without stopping.
This doctor has been rediculed for his findings yet I think he is possibly correct.. judging by cyclosporins major side effect of cancer.. it seems to tie in with this doctor’s findings?
The above info is sketchy and I would implore all to research if interested.. I have done tonnes of research on this and have my hunch/ truth.


Guru Nanak Dev Ji’s views on women

At the time of the Gurus women were considered very low in society. Both Hindus and Muslims regarded women as inferior and a man’s property. Women were treated as mere property whose only value was as a servant or for entertainment generally.. They were considered seducers and distractions from man’s spiritual path. Budhism saw women as distractions to man’s spiritual path too…

Men were allowed polygamy but widows were not allowed to remarry but encouraged to burn themselves on their husbands funeral pyre (sati). Child marriage and female infanticide were prevalent and purdah (veils) were popular for women. Women were also not allowed to inherit any property. Many Hindu women were captured and sold as slaves in foreign Islamic countries.

In such a climate Guru Nanak Dev, the founder of Sikhism shocked the entire society by preaching that women were worthy of praise and equal to men.LOL!! 🙂

Five hundred years later, the rest of mankind is only now waking up to this fundamental truth. The Gurus actively encouraged the participation of women as equals in worship, in society, and on the battlefield. They encouraged freedom of speech and women were allowed to participate in any and all religious activities including reading of the Guru Granth Sahib.

From woman, man is born;

within woman, man is conceived;

to woman he is engaged and married.

Woman becomes his friend;

through woman, the future generations come.

When his woman dies, he seeks another woman;

to woman he is bound.

So why call her bad?

From her, kings are born.

From woman, woman is born; without woman, there would be no one at all.

Guru Nanak, Raag Aasaa Mehal 1, Page 473