Words of wisdom from a cancer, stroke, kidney transplant survivor

I have a loved one,  who is sooooo AMAZING, that she just makes me feel humbled, amazed, greatful, inspired.. could go on 🙂  Anyway I asked her today to write me her “formula” for being the person she is.. Well an hour later I recieved some beautiful loving words from her in an email.

Below is a quote from that email.
“Here are my thoughts on living the best life you can with what you have right now.

1. Learn to accept the problems you face.
2. Always know that in this World there are people who are much worse of than you.
3. Be happy with the time you have on this Earth as you are just on a journey, until the next journey comes along.
4. Knowledge is power, knowing about what other people go through, makes you understand their situation better.
5. Meditation calms the mind and is important for peace of mind, this helped me a lot. While praying to God, I feel at peace.
6. Learning to not have too much expectations of people.
7. Life is a bunch of challenges, which you have to learn to face and overcome as they come into your life.
8. Forgive those that make you sad, only then can you move on and learn to be at peace with yourself.
9. Life improves tremendously, when you learn to accept your gains as well as your losses. An example is: I thought I would never be able to walk but I am! I never thought that I would have a kidney transplant and live a normal life, but I did. Even though the down side is long-term medications, physical exercise, weak muscle strength and no movement in my left arm for the last 20 years. I am grateful to God for giving me the strength to go on believing that one day I will have my dreams come true, whether in this life or the next. But for now, dont sweat about the unexpected.
10. Take each day as it comes, as a gift!”

p.s I have this article filed under a number of categories including pharmaceutical… because .. well, it is a long story but she reacted negatively to drugs she was given for a basic problem which caused her to go blind, have a stroke, her kidneys failed and she started to have epileptic fits as a direct result.. :-/
A few years later she had a kidney transplant. The anti-rejection drug she was given is called cyclosporin.  One of its side effects is cancer..and that is what she got 4 years ago…

Cyclosporin was isolated from the fungus Tolypocladium inflatum. Cyclosporin was first investigated as an anti-fungal antibiotic but its spectrum was too narrow to be of any clinical use. J. F. Borel discovered its immunosuppressive activity in 1976.This led to further investigations into its properties involving further immunological tests and investigations into its structure and synthesis. Cyclosporin has unwanted side effects, notably nephrotoxicity. Animal testing showed cyclosporin to be sufficiently non-toxic to begin clinical trials. These initially failed due to poor absorption of the drug. Once this had been overcome, results were encouraging enough for cyclosporin to be licensed for use in clinical practice. There is some controversy between Borel and other workers over priority in the discovery of cyclosporin and its pre-clinical development, which is examined in this review. Cyclosporin changed the face of transplantation. It decreased morbidity and enabled the routine transplantation of organs that until then had only been done experimentally.

Dr T.Simoncini states cancer is a fungus.
His book “Cancer is a fungus” describes how a fungus infection always forms the basis of every neoplastic formation, and this formation tries to spread within the whole organism without stopping.
This doctor has been rediculed for his findings yet I think he is possibly correct.. judging by cyclosporins major side effect of cancer.. it seems to tie in with this doctor’s findings?
The above info is sketchy and I would implore all to research if interested.. I have done tonnes of research on this and have my hunch/ truth.


Comedy clips

I love comedy. However it is interesting how things that made me laugh in the past do not necessarily have the same effect know..

Anyway, heres a few folks who amused me.

Citizen Smith (70’s comedy)

Mind your language, season one (70’s comedy)

Russel Peters, how to deal with your parents.

Goodness gracious me. Typical asian parents.

Indian Name


What is Panic Disorder?

“Panic Disorder is a type of anxiety characterized by brief or sudden attacks of intense terror and apprehension that leads to shaking, confusion, dizziness, nausea, and difficulty breathing. Panic attacks tend to arise abruptly and peak after 10 minutes, but they then may last for hours. Panic disorders usually occur after frightening experiences or prolonged stress, but they can be spontaneous as well. A panic attack may lead an individual to be acutely aware of any change in normal body function, interpreting it as a life threatening illness – hypervigiliance followed by hypochondriasis. In addition, panic attacks lead a sufferer to expect future attacks, which may cause drastic behavioral changes in order to avoid these attacks.”
Below is a short video discussing panic disorder. (video by NHSChoices)

Dr Paul Salkovskis

Hope the above helps Mya 🙂


How should children be educated? Como educar a los ninos?

Well, everyone has their own ideal. Mine ring similarly with my friend Carmen Acevedo, who has  and is working tirelessly to improve the curriculum,  with respect to a much greater emphasis on childrens emotional development. Creativity and expression through dance is one of her tools.

Do check out her website below, especially if you are involved with teaching children.

Bueno, cada persona tiene su opinion y el mio concuerda con la de mi amiga Carmen Acevedo. “El objetivo de nuestro proyecto es conseguir la implantaciĂłn de una asignatura obligatoria de EducaciĂłn Emocional en los colegios e institutos.”

http://www.educacionparalapaz.com


A few thoughts on how sex is viewed in the modern world

“In Pharmacology, all drugs have two names, a trade name and generic
name. For example, the trade name of Tylenol also has a generic name
of Acetaminophen. Aleve is also called Naproxen. Amoxil is also called
Amoxicillin and Advil is also called Ibuprofen.

The FDA has been looking for a generic name for Viagra. After careful
consideration by a team of government experts, it recently announced
that it has settled on the generic name of Mycoxafloppin.
Also considered were Mycoxafailin, Mydixadrupin, Mydixarizin, Dixafix, and
of course, Ibepokin.

Pfizer Corp. announced today that Viagra will soon be available in
liquid form, and will be marketed by Pepsi Cola as a power beverage
suitable for use as a mixer. It will now be possible for a man to
literally pour himself a stiff one.

Obviously we can no longer call this a soft drink, and it gives new
meaning to the names of cocktails, highballs and just a good
old-fashioned stiff drink. Pepsi will market
the new concoction by the name of: MOUNT & DO.

(viagras real gen.name is sildenafil )

Thought for the day: There is more money being spent on breast
implants and Viagra today than on Alzheimer’s research. This means
that by 2040, there should be a large elderly population with perky
boobs and huge erections and absolutely no recollection of what to do with them.”

The above quote is from David Icke’s website… I hope you found it amusing as I certainly did..
I wanted to break the ice before I put forth my thoughts.. I may come across as a bit of a party pooper to some but I think sex is sacred and its dethroning from that platform to the gutter concerns me.

I don’t see many folks openly comfortable around the subject of this beautiful human experience in a wholistic way … And this discomfort is like a contagious disease …  Most religions, cultures and traditions have wrapped sex in so much shame and guilt that I have to congratulate humanity that it still exists.

However for the last few decades we have the other extreme, free for all sex in society’s value system and  the “entertainment” industry.

Its a way to make a few bucks fast BUT at what longterm price to the fabric of society?

The way humanity relates to sexuality speaks volumes about its state of civillization.

Hunger and sex are two big things that make todays humanity swing… not always from the chandaliers but you know … ….hunger satisfied …sex wanted… sex satisfied …hunger pangs emerge.. to and fro , to and fro….

BUT much of todays humanity is in a constant state of being unsatisfied despite all the sexual freedom (and food excesses). It can take all the mycoxafloppin …make the filthy rich pharmaceutical companies even richer but humanity is and probably will still be unsatisfied because I feel  it does not understand or wish to acknowledge the sacredness of sex.

Just as we are miseducated about food, health, reality etc. I feel  that we are ..hypnotised/miseducated about sex.

How? I hear you ask. For the purposes of profiteering, sex is sold as a purely physical thing. The miseducation/abuse starts from an early age with excessive exposure of sex and violence to our children through advertisements, television, films and other media. Humanity is continuously titilated with subliminal sexual messages 24 hours, 7 days a week. I remember once standing at a bus stop with my eldest when he was only about 7 years old. As the bus arrived there was a massive poster of a minimally clothed woman pouting away looking very sexy… my instinct was to protect his innocence and I quickly ushered him inside the bus.. I felt powerless… and I resented my childs innocence being attacked..

When a child grows up in such a society it will most likely see itself as a physical body only unless there is positive parenting of some sort.  If not it will most likely learn to experience sex as a physical thing only.  And eventually it could lead that person to be further away from their true nature,  ie spirit, mind, emotions and physical body.

The end result is pain:

in relationships with the opposite sex,

and society where rape and murders abound…

No matter how far and wide, or with how many of whatever sex, ones sexual exploits go, one will probably not find true joy. It will be no different from the rush a drug addict gets from his/her whatever fix. I imagine that is fine for some. This world is made of allsorts of people at various stages of their overall development…

Some seem to have only just stepped out of neandrathal man’s shoes and others are near sainthood. I don’t have judgement on individuals but I do have a judgement on forces that are swaying humanity to be physically more self centered/absorbed to the point of being irresponsible  in a way that is painful to the majority of humanity and this once amazingly beautiful planet. Everything has a knock on effect because everything is connected.

I have seen many women raise their kids single handedly because of this “swaying”. One such dear friend  was promised love and loyalty but abandoned as soon as she became pregnant …The friend feeling alone and lonely did her best to raise that child… Living on a few pennies she would give her self  “treats” by going to the local Fast food place once in a while..(think of a clown). The child grew up with less then ideal dietry habits and minus the love of a father.  Being the amazingly beautiful and intelligent women that she is ..she gave herself completely 100% as a parent and know her family are grown up and on their feet ..while the man has mental problems etc… not surprising… His youth has gone and no one gives him the time of day. His kids don’t want to know him as he was not around for them. Her struggle was heartbreaking to see. Unfortunately I have  many friends who have gone through that also from different social, national, cultural and religious backgrounds… It seems the norm in the Western society..

Not all women are that strong and many go under…It seems that those benefitting from the loss of our moral compass feel no remorse or responsibility.

having said that..the ultimate responsibility lies with every human and the value system we examplify and teach our children.

Looking back in history, this was done openly and cruely to the Black slaves in the Americas. When two slaves had a child the father would be sent away so he could never know his child.. He was then encouraged to produce more offspring in the same manner here there and everywhere… That is what they do to cows knowadays in factory farms so they can maximise milk and meat production. (Many have cancer, or other illness brought on by the filth and sadness they have to live in thus the pumping up with antibiotics)

So it is a shame when I see some Black brothers trying to live up to the image of being a “Stud”…and what is worst is when impressionable young men of all races and nationalities see it as “cool”.

All I see is, them doing the slavemaster’s work long after the slavemasters are dead and gone.

I wonder how many people are raising children because someone had a idea that sex and its end products come with a quick thrill and no responsibility.

From my observations, children thrive on tonnes of love from their parentS and extended family, while living in close proximity.

I would like to state here this is in NO way an attack on single parents ..it IS an observation on all of  our acceptance of a power that seems hell bent on dimming our Spiritual Identity in many different ways (including sexually) and turning the volume high on our emotional levels of  fear, anger, anxieties, jealousies, insecurities because we can’t trust the world around us..

Pain on a individual level, pain on a societal level and pain on a humanity level, is the end result of this subliminal abuse as far as I can see.

How is sex connected to humanity and this planet…. Well while we are in this intoxicated, drugged up state of slaves to physical pleasures  we can hardly heal ourselves emotionally , mentally and spiritually let alone take responsibility for the survival of humanity or this planet adequately and urgently as that is what is required if we wish for a bright future for our coming generations.

Breaking free from this mental slavery is immensely important because we need to be  free to see ourselves as wholistic beings. That is when humanity will discover the joy of life and offcourse the Joy of  Sacred Sex.


Saying “goodbye” to Bertie and family…

The last week I have been with my friend and his kids alot as they are off to start a new life in Australia. Its been a crazy hectic time for him as he has had to run around sooo much the last few months. He had to sell the car (finally sold yesterday!!), get rid of all the stuff we humans gather to make a home, sort out a mountain load of paperwork and then finally clean his rented apartment to hand back to the owner after half a decade or so living there…… He looks knackered,  but pleased as things are nearly all sorted. I am waiting at the moment for his call so I can give a hand with any last minute stuff…

His wife Nic and me spent alot of time together, the last few years. We had a bit of time away from each other when I was at my land, but I knew I could see her whenever I felt like it. We were similar yet different. Just the right mix of personality, values and beliefs for a very special friendship.

She left 6 months ago on a wet February day. The rain helped me hide my tears as I waited to say the final goodbye standing near the road which takes you out of the village and towards the airport, I managed a smile as her car went by. And now the rest of the family are going. The sunshine does not make it any easier.

I feel sad but it is not overwhelming, because I only need  to remind myself of their love and warmth to stay balanced. Love cannot be destroyed by distance or time. And I will no doubt stand in the sunny rays of that thought and soak up the love I got from them whenever I am missing them..

They are both very sincere, honest, trustworthy and down to Earth people. They are like a brother and sister to me. Their kids are great too..

We are taking them to the airport tomorrow morning…   I can´t at the moment imagine my life here without them…

So many things have happened to me recently that show the incredibly humongous amount of love that exists around us. (Thus all those posts on love!) And I think it´s up to us to acknowledge it, “feed off it”… and then “pass it on”.  I know wherever they go they will give love. I pray they meet many along the path of life that are worthy of recieving their warmth and love and who love them in return too..


Love vibes from the third plane to you dear Tonyx

There is
no difficulty that enough love will not conquer;
no disease that enough love will not heal;
no door that enough love will not open;
no gulf that enough love will not bridge;
no wall that enough love will not throw down;
no sin that enough love will not redeem…
It makes no difference how deeply seated may be the trouble;
how hopeless the outlook;
how muddled the tangle;
how great the mistake.
A sufficient realization of love will dissolve it all.
If only you could love enough you would be the happiest and most powerful being in the world.

The greatest degree of inner tranquility comes from the development of love and compassion. The more we care for the happiness of others, the greater is our own sense of well-being.

– Tenzin Gyatso, 14th Dalai Lamat

The more I think it over, the more I feel that there is nothing more truly artistic than to love people.

– Vincent van Gogh

Your task is not to seek love, but merely to seek & find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.

– Rumi

We look forward to the time when the Power of Love will replace the Love of Power. Then will our world know the blessings of peace.

– William E. Gladstone

“It is impossible to fall out of love. Love is such a powerful emotion, that once it envelops you it does not depart. True love is eternal. If you think that you were once in love, but fell out of it, then it wasn’t love you were in. There are no ‘exit’ signs in love, there is only an ‘on’ ramp.”

“I tried to engrave my love on your heart
But you turned away
Till I turned around and saw through you
The vacuum that dwells in place of a soul
You’re cold, so cold, I fear you so
Why were you born?
You haunt my soul!”

I was 17 when I wrote the above words regards a disfunctional human whose twinkling eyes played havoc with my heart.

But one enlightening  day, the realization came to me like a flash, that  I was under the spell of these eyes because they looked so similar to my grandfather’s eyes! My dear beloved grandfather whom I loved dearly and missed soooo much… and like magic I was no longer a victim to these eyes… I stood in amazement in the middle of the college canteen, jaw dropped, head going round in circles…the sadness lifted..


There is no person in my life that I have loved and no longer love. Tony too has a special place, in the garden of my mind where loved ones come and grace that space with their warmth.

As time went by I learnt he too was a victim of his circumstances, he was not cold or soul less. But he was jealous, fearful of life and felt he was not good enough in any way. He also felt very trapped by his society.  He rebelled in his own way for which I judged him and looked down on him all those years ago.  However I know have nothing but love for him in my heart and he is in my prayers along with all my loved ones…. If he was still alive he would have been 51 years old tomorrow…